Along with working on this jealously issue, I need to work on taking care of ME.
My self worth is still floating around in the lake, but I think I saved it from drowning. I hope.
I still don’t like what I see in the mirror, especially from the POV of, say a customer coming into the bookstore.
I see a late middle aged, overweight female who has gotten stupid lazy about keeping the grey hairs away. And I then see FAILURE. LOSER. FAT. STUPID.
Need to work on that. I just don’t know where to start.
I need to accept that this might be “it” for me in regards to my professional life. Still swallowing that pill….very bitter.
I do have a few things to look forward to in the coming months. My boys from Ireland are playing two shows in mid May. And I’ll be doing my yearly trek to the city of my birth in September to stuff my face with ALL THE SEAFOOD.
I just have to keep telling myself One Day At A Time. Baby steps.
Easier said than done.